I know you don't actually mean the things you say about her wishing I would piss off already and take a hint, I know what you're doing and for me to just move on instead of wasting it on someone that doesn't want me but I don't want to keep her around if I am to move on, I don't want those "lingering feelings" knowing she is still around. If I am out, I am all the way out and wont be waiting for her to see if she wants to hike and set it up. I can't speak for the future, maybe one day I'll send her a text and catch up like a decade or 2 or more later if she somehow runs on my mind.

I also don't talk to her about the money. Back in Oct I did once, then again last week she messaged me about it but that's it. Normally people just up and ghost people that they owe money to.