It is not about finding someone who won’t say BPD. It’s the fact that my T is trying to give me the full diagnosis when I only have 3 out of the 9 traits. I told him that I would work on the traits that I have but I don’t want to end up getting treated for things that aren’t the real issues.

And when I told him that I didn’t have the psychiatric problems until my mom died, he said something and I asked him if BPD comes suddenly and he almost made it sound normal that it appeared after my mom’s death when I had absolutely no mental health issues prior to her death.

If I leave this T, I am done with therapy altogether.

T doesn’t even know how much pain I’m in. I seriously doubt that he can help me feel better at the upcoming session.