It wasn't a showdown or a way for me to vent, I would be as civil as I could just wishing her well and hope she gets nothing but great things her way. If she asks what is wrong I would just tell her it doesn't matter and we should both move on. She doesn't know I am like this and I never planned on letting her know because this anger I have is not against her, it's anger I have against myself and how poisonious I feel inside even long before her, but my feelings for her distracted me from my real problems and she's the only female to give me a chance and as I am 35 I am pretty sure I wont have another chance like this at another woman. She's already lost some male friendships because the new boyfriend and she did not take it well, told her I was thinking of leaving too but she ignored me and later said she did not think my feelings were that bad to end things to begin with.