I'm a woman, I can identify with what you said. Life is hard, but I have found that substances don't help, nor do certain behaviors. I'm not saying that is an issue for you but it could lead to feeling worse then you feel now. I'm 31, no boys in sight, and no friends. I'm very busy going to grad school and feel inadequate sometimes. But I have found that taking good care of my spiritual, mental, physical, and emotional health helps. Especially spiritual and physical. I hope turning to Meditation [emoji120] may help you. There are several YouTube videos that are good. Just type in meditation, or guided meditation, or guided visualizations.

You are one up in me. I live with my parents. And no prospect of moving out in the next 2 years.