I do have a pdoc who I thankfully see next month. I also take Paxil, Lamictal, Seroquel and Trazadone as needed. I think the enormous amount of stress I'm under is a major contributing factor. The danger of the situation is foremost the fact that these men are pretty much strangers. I'm not using protection ,and now I've started to use otc products in a manner that they are not intended for to prepare my body for sex that has the potential to be rough ☹️ what in the name of everything holy have I become