I'd also like to thank you for sharing your story again , and hopefully the pain lessens a little every time you do so as it's processed as well as helping others to not feel they are so alone. Raucous laughter ? They SHOULD and probably DO know better , the shame lies with them. You are very brave , and it does help to have a good , ethical T. The great universal force that is karma will work it's magic in time , I've seen this with myself. You are not alone with your struggles , promise