I have never had any amnesia besides childhood. I dont have current day to day amnesia. I am always co-conscious when I switch. I feel like I am taking the backseat but I still remember everything. When I come back Im always like what was that? but i do remember it. I just never thought I had DID because I wasnt like Sybil. When I got diagnosed DDNOS in the early 2000s I had to stop seeing her because I didnt have the money. So I went to a CSB. My therapist there said you dont have that you have to have major switches in front of me. So I focused on my OCD for many years until stuff started to resurface. Im really not worried so much about the switching. I mean I am skeptical because thats me but I am more concerned about the voice thoughts I am having. I absolutely do not want to be schizophrenic. I do alot of reading and the voice seem to happen in bith DID and schizophrenia. My alters that come out dont talk just feel and act. The thought voices dont act and there feelings are limited. So it is very hard to tell if the thoughts voices are DID or schizophrenia.
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