Zed, I can relate to your distrust of people. You are not alone. Hang in there and sometimes there is a special kind of comfort in being alone. At least you don't have to deal with human drama. As humans, drama always seems to surface in the most surprising of ways. At least alone, you can reflect on yourself and learn to trust that being alone can be a good thing. There are some very toxic people out there. I don't blame you for your dilemma, as I am there often. I can count the number of friends I have with one hand, as I don't trust people. Currently, I am also going through the beginning of a gut wrenching divorce.

I have yet still to learn to be 100% happy to feeling alone, as it can be quite isolating. Try to think of some positives there are to being alone, like not having to deal with the human drama and the toxic people that are out there. Hang in there.

--sarc