At least, you can do something positive with your situation. I have to depend on public transportation to go anywhere and getting a job is absolutely not possible because of this. I live in an area where mostly cars are driven. Also, you're trying your best to overcome your obstacles. I applaud you! I wish I could too. I am stuck for awhile in my situation and know it will change after short period though. You are doing the right things to help yourself. So, don't knock yourself. I think jobs come and go and hope you obtain a job you like. If you don't, I read somewhere you have to be with the frogs to be with the prince. Why don't you just accept the jobs that come to you? Then, may be you can rebuild your resume. I hope your situation improves. Please keep us posted.