Hey couchies,
Thanks again to the pocket riders. Awesome T proved his awesomeness again. He found a safe middle path between what I wanted to bring to therapy to work on today and what my protective parts felt comfortable trusting him with. At the end of session he held me in a hug for a really long time gently telling me all the things he wished infant me had gotten to experience. He held my hand the entire session because I was having a hard time staying grounded. It felt really good to have that connection there the whole time.
T brought up how often he is away and how difficult that is for clients with my needs. He feels bad that he cannot offer me a more consistent connection right now. He also warned that as we continue to progress in therapy and the relationship builds it is likely to get harder for me when he is gone before it gets easier.
I left totally exhausted but feeling very loved.