I don't mind you asking. I had known my boyfriend for three years total now. I met him while still undergoing emotional abuse. He helped me cope. But my mother is highly religious and my father...,is my father. Not much to say there. My boyfriend (let's call him Dark) was not religious whatsoever. He and I got involved in things my mother didn't like. I didn't even tell her I was having an affair.

We met online and had a long distance relationship. But we knew exactly were each other lived. My mother found and was furious. She took my devices and watched me extremely closely. Although I managed to stay in contact with him at my father's. But I lost that too. And he was severely depressed and suicidal. He was abused as well.

And in that time. I got in a LOT of trouble. Things like lying and planned runningaways to just not caring about anyone's feelings. I felt like I was in the right. So I locked them out. Attempted myself and was hospitalized for ten days. I verbally abused my parents as well.

And here's the thing. I liked doing all that. I liked the rush of power. But I kept my mask on and never told people about my violent thoughts.

And even though I don't know for sure he died, I feel like he might have attempted and he probably would have succeeded.

I don't want to put to much here because I might say something I shouldnt. But feel free to PM me. I can get into more details that way.