Hope,

I think most of the people on this forum have quite a bit of empathy for you and wish nothing more than for you not to suffer anymore. We're glad you post here. Please don't feel like you're not welcome here. Maybe some people come off as harsh (and I know sometimes I can't handle harshness), but I think they do care for you even if you're just a stranger on the internet. I get wishing you could delete your posts, but I truly believe everyone here just wants to offer you support and encouragement and their collective wisdom. None of us are perfect and we probably wouldn't be here if we aren't struggling or hadn't struggled at some point. We accept your imperfection and your struggle.