I understand exactly how you feel. Or at least I think I do. Let me know if this sounds familiar.
1: you view yourself as a predatory animal such as a wolf or a fox. And use them to represent yourself.
2: you consider yourself to be a leader of group. You expect full respect and full insulted when your challenged. You feel the immediate urge to put a person in their place quickly and without mercy. And you have done this before. And this includes any friends or family.
3: You hate it when people expect you to be polite and respectful. Although your completely capable of it, you feel important and think they need to earn your respect. And if the demand it then they don't deserve it.
4: You feel the need to be a puzzle. You need to make everyone question your motives and thoughts. You leave clues everywhere and leave symbols and such that mean something specific or something important to you. You want to people to be confused as otherwise you feel threatened. You always need to be one step ahead.
5: Although you may feel deep pain or anger and on rare occasion you may cry. Let's say every few months to once a year. You find enjoyment on inflecting your feelings on your targets as you view them as weak minded. Your the alpha and it doesn't matter who they are. They most likely don't deserve their power. So you will take it from them by manipulation.
6: You use your friendliness to draw in possible allies, that you can use to your advantage. You twist their view to make yourself the victim.
Do you feel like this too? Or is it just me?
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If you ever see a fox looking at you through your window, dont be alarmed. I dont bite. Normally..... 
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