Today is going better than yesterday. I feel better. I think it was former T's email. It was enough to stabilize me. I'm getting a $200 visa gift card for a bonus at work. Pretty excited about that! I'll probably just save it to use at Christmas but still, that's pretty awesome. Plus we have a meeting on Thursday with free lunch and I got free Starbucks today. Yippee! My depression feels better (can't all just be this free stuff) at least for today. I feel more centered within myself. My anxiety is rising a bit but that may have been the coffee. I'm feeling pretty settled in myself. It's a good feeling. I forgot what it felt like because I've been in crisis mode for too many days.