I'm not a mother either yet, but my favorite speaker Les Brown was adopted.He spoke about before being angry at his birth parents because they were faceless and he never knew them, but a friend told him. That it was natural for a mother to automatically love her child when she felt them moving inside her. That he wasn't just given away, but also chosen with love as his adoptive mother never had that experience but accepted him 100%.

Maybe you tried to find your birth mother?