Hey, I dont know how to include everyone to let them know, but I had my session today and talked to my therapist about my concerns about my confidentiality. I explained that I dont want to tell her something and have it backfire and put me in a hospital, wether it be homicidal or suicidal thoughts. I told her I felt a large amount of anxiety that she mentioned it when I said I wanted to see my ex dead. She said she didnt call and would never call unless a plan was inplace or I told her I had access to weapons and was going to confront my ex, but said that me saying that is concerning to keep thinking like this and wants to work on it with me; to change my way of thinking and not pick the two extremes of forgiving her and hope shes happy, or to wish her dead but to find a good place in the middle that I can agree apon to let her go, which im happy about that I dont have to forgive her and wish her well immediately. I guess I overreacted and got anxious. She says she will only call if she feels my life or someone elses is at risk by harm or death, only occuring in a plan and the means to carry it out. Im glad that I was able to speak it out with her and I feel better about the whole situation. After 12 sessions I can finally say I trust her to help me by what she said today. I just hope she has the patience for me as even this took me a long time to trust her. Again, it looks like I overreacted and freaked out. I guess thats what happens when your depressed, angry, anxious, and have bad abandonment issues. Thanks everyone for your help and concern. I greatly appreciate it; thanks for being there for me.