Oh Phoenix_1, that must have been so painful to be deserted by everyone in the women's group you had belonged to for 30 years. I was deserted also by everyone who I used to be friends with through work once I was put on disability. I call it 'shunning'.

I understand why people don't want to be involved with me though. It is too much trouble. Since 2008 I have been hospitalized every 2 or 3 years for manic psychosis. The last time I was thrown in a forensic psychiatric ward since I didn't pull over for police. I was paranoid of the police and just drove home. The next day they broke down my door and took me away. They mixed the men and women together on the forensic ward. It was a really scary place and I was there for a month.

I was doing dangerous things though before I was incarcerated. I see it much more clearly now.

Now I take a low dose of an antipsychotic everyday and it has been almost 2 years since my last breakdown.