I live in my head and it's a mess right now. I'm a mess right now. I don't have words to explain it. I'm sensitive and on the verge of crying for days, cried onces. I'm tense as hell and have so much nervous energy I can't lay down and relax. I have a week to get my **** together. I don't know what to do. I don't have a T and I don't see pdoc for 7 weeks. When alone my thoughts are dark and it doesn't help my husband's sleeping until 1 pm and I get up at 7 am. Self harm is in the front of my mind most days. It sounds like a perfect solution. This is so uncomfortable. I often feel I'm screaming for help but look perfectly fine.