I'm super depressed. I don't think I can ever take care of myself by myself. I've never been able to. Before H, I had SSI and section 8, but I had to give that up in order to marry him. I might be able to finish college, maybe, but getting a full time job? I think I'm lying to myself. Besides, what is there left to live for? I have a broken family, an abusive H, can't have children, etc. I'm just not meant for this life.