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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote
Hi MM!
I am sorry you are having such a difficult time.
What happens in a week?
How can you get outside of your head?
What can you do to discharge the nervous energy?
Any chance you can go for a walk with your hubby?
Any chance you and hubby can agree to a household schedule in which everyone gets up by a certain time? If either of you were in the hospital, you would have to get up and be dressed by a certain time, so why not do this for yourselves without having to go to the hospital?
Are you using CBT/DBT skills each day?
What helps?
Are you balancing chores with some FUN?
Thinking of you and your family ~ 
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Miguel gets home in a week. I need to do art, I just don't want to. I keep putting it off. I'm not doing anything right now chores wise. I haven't showered, changed, or done my hair in days (maybe a week). I get up drag myself to the couch because if I stay laying there my anxiety spikes with all these long off concerns and things I can't do anything about. Then I sit on here trying to read and respond but fail. Eventually I eat (toast), take dinner out, and start the long process of waking my husband up every hour until he gets up. Then we eat and I go back to sitting on the computer until dinner and then wait here for when I can finally go to bed.
I don't want to ask my husband to do anything. I don't want anything negative and he's not well either. Last time I tried to actually talk to him he made me cry and feel shittier. I'm not over that yet.
I need to make a schedule and try and stick with it. I'm failing at daily life.
I'm trying to tell myself things I think are untrue but other then that I'm not really doing anything. I don't even write.
My mind goes to non-helpful "helpful" stuff that I shouldn't do.
Nothing is balanced right now.
Thank-you,
ETA: Sorry Scooter9
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