Exhausted today. Saw my T this morning. He helped me see that I’m stronger than I give myself credit. Thankfully the agitation has left and anxiety decreased. This is such a relief. PTSD with a mixed state is hell so having it calm down allows me to do more than put everything into surviving each moment.

Today is my Dad’s 70th Bday so my parents and sister are going out to dinner. It will be overwhelming getting out but it should also be wonderful. Even though I slept 8 hours last night I just had a two hour nap. I think therapy wore me out. Too much to process. It would be wonderful to have a day where I didn’t have to work hard at looking after my health. Staying alive is my prime achievement, but few people would understand that.