hi Jazz..

that doesnt sound any fun at all... no wonder youre sad and angry too..

i think sometimes people have totally forgotten that the others around them are flesh and blood and get wounded and hurt..

im certain a lot of factors have gone into the current state of affairs... not the least of which is desensitization across a large section of the population... we're simply worn out...

but not all of us... so, hang on... look for good sources to lead you into a better frame of mind... people here have a lot of experience and ideas.....

but books, walks, talks with others who identify, quiet time, mad, angry time, time to process... all will help...

hoping others have some ideas too..