T left the room in front of me today which is unusual.
As, she got downstairs she opened the door and as I passed she stepped back and let out a cry of shock as she tripped on something left in her hallway.
. I stood on the step and said "are you OK!?"
In that moment I felt like the adult and her the child.
Earlier in session she had handed me her holiday dates.
I manage to have the courage and tell her that though intellectually I understand holidays. It still feels like I'm angry at her leaving me "
I didn't react to the feelings, I spoke about them in a mature manner.
T said" of course you feel that way. You don't have many attachments, to people but you have a, secure attachment to me so of course it feels like a loss"
I added "but it feels babyish. I should just know you're going on holiday full stop"
T said "but everyone has, those feelings if they're honest with themselves"
I said "do they? I bet they'd just think - have a nice holiday.
She added" yes, but there's another layer of feelings beneath that, that many won't feel"
I replied "you don't?!"
T said " Say a friend is moving up north. You'd feel those feelings"
I added "you wouldn't? *
T said" why do you think I used That example? "
I felt she was being vunrable in that moment. Made me feel closer to her.
I just felt she was a little more vunrable . Maybe the Weather getting too her.
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