welcome to PC, Record! not sure if what your are describing is a normal thing per se but I think I can relate. some days my mind and brain are so overloaded that I wish I can cleanse my head of these intrusive thoughts and anxiety. I also want to "reset." it happens often for me and when manic, it gets very bad. I never really think of harming myself but I do get very frustrated by it all. what we need is a brain "car wash" once again, welcome! happy to have you here!