Well, she actually showed up. It was a wonderful visit.

We stayed busy going out to swim, shop, the theater, ride bikes, walk, go to parks, stay home and work around the house. She actually insisted with helping with my garden. She even came to my physical and dental appointments to hold my hand through it.

I was worried about a lot of things, especially that she would be disappointed in me and that I would tire of being with someone all of the time for 2 weeks since I am an introvert. Neither happened. We are now very close and I never got overwhelmed.

One day, my seizure activity was a little bad so we did nothing but she laid next to me all day and didn't complain. It did make her worry that I was having trouble getting out of bed for most of the time. I was so worried that it would scare her away but she was simply concerned that she really did care about me.

The last couple of days before she left was a little tough as she would cry a lot and her visa was stamped to be able to stay until January and she was talking about it and sometimes wishes she had but I think it is best. A fairly short initial visit and now we can talk seriously about our future. I would hate that she stayed and lost her job because of it and in a month started to regret it.

It has been so hard since she left but I am getting back to normal. It triggered my depression and anxiety so badly, it has been difficult to cope with for a few days.

It felt like we had been together forever yet there was still the excitement of a new relationship. The situation is complicated but I now have zero doubts about her and us. I have no doubt we were made for each other.

She is everything she showed herself to be in the past 9 months

I am so glad we both took the risk. It is a weird feeling to know that someone truly cares about me. It still bothers me a little that she is very attracted to me, that part still feels unreal but maybe that is an artifact of being alone for an extreme amount of time.