Hi, Mickey,
Thanks for the love and support, as always! I always enjoy seeing your posts.

That's actually exactly what I plan on doing. THIS time, I'm going to be as clear and communicative as I can be. I want him to know about all my flaws, my insecurities and anxieties, as well as all the good things, even the mediocre things! From what I can tell, he's pretty open and accepting and willing to work things through.

I'm just waiting to do this in person. There's sort of an unspoken understanding between the two of us that all this discussion (and by that, I mean talk about our feelings towards other) will take place once we see each other. Sure, we could do it over the phone, but this is so important to us that we wouldn't want to do that!

edit: also, yes, I'm seeing a therapist. She has helped me identify all of these irrational thought processes. I will be seeing her a few days before I see him again... that was planned on purpose!