Hi!

Your description of your life sounds very depressed.

I guess you may be asking: which came first the chicken or the egg?
Is my current life a byproduct of mental illness or is my current lifestyle making me ill?

Either way, it is important to obtain assistance in changing your life so you might feel happier and more fulfilled.

I highly suggest you get involved in therapy , if it is an option for you.

About the meds? I am impressed that Rainbow's pdoc likes Rexulti. Mine does not.
So, it is really a matter of what does work for YOU!
You won't know until you try it for yourself.

My Best to You!