Going to respond to a few different posters all in one here.
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My pdoc is also a pharmacist so she gets really excitedd about new meds. She told me she talked to the rep for Rexulti and when they made it they listed things they wished Abilify did and tried to make a pill that did that along with Abilif's good stuff
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Thanks. Yeah I was reading up on it and discovered both are made by the same company. The Rexulti molecule is a slightly modified version of Abilify. Skeptical people claim that once abilify went off patent that they decided to create a close relative in order to keep that $$$ flowing in. (The cost of Rexulti is insane -- over $1k a month. I feel like a criminal when I see what my Medicaid is paying for it). In any case, supposedly the Rexulti molecule is actually improved in some ways over Abilify. Less side-effects. As long as it is somewhat weight neutral and doesn't give me TD I will be happy.
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Your description of your life sounds very depressed.
I guess you may be asking: which came first the chicken or the egg?
Is my current life a byproduct of mental illness or is my current lifestyle making me ill?
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Yep precisely. I've been told I am just a lazy no good SOB. And I wonder if maybe they're right and I am depressed because of my laziness.
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I tried Abilify and didn't get along with it. Some time later, I tried Rexulti and voila! It works and no side effects.
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Glad to hear it. Abilify sucked for me. I think I stopped after only a couple days on it.
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I can relate to your struggles, @Dysphoria! It may be BOTH things. You can have MI and still turn out the way you do because of your environment. I agree with ALL the other wise, wonderful posters about seeing a Therapist if you're not seeing one already!
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Yes, I am starting therapy next month. My therapist is not a PhD because I am going to a free clinic. But I guess I'll take what I can get.
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I felt it in my gut when I read your post. I can so well understand the dilemma you're in, Dysphoria. Up until last year I was obsessed with ruminating about whether I really had a mental illness or whether I was showing symptoms I due to the environment in which I grew up. I also kept asking and asking if the so-called "symptoms" could possibly be just me...my specific personality.
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Thank you. It is nice to hear I am not alone.
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I am on a low dose of Rexulti. I have been on it for over a year and a half and have been stable during that time. I take it to prevent a return of delusional thoughts and hallucinations.
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I don't have hallucinations or delusions (well sometimes I wonder if I do have situational delusions). I am taking it mostly to help with my depression. I am hoping it is able to pull me out of it. All I want is for the daily pain and compulsive thoughts to go away. I figure even if my life circumstances suck, I shouldn't be constantly wanting to die. I should be able to find interest in SOMETHING, but I just don't have it right now.