THANK YOU EVERYONE!

Does it make sense to you all when I say I have been feeling guilty for appearing to be okay these days? To people I appear great right now - great enough I should be functioning well in all areas of life. As mentioned people seem flabbergasted and frankly a little disgusted that I am choosing not to work. They think I am milking the system. It seems they think that if I am not working right now that I should be struggling - and appear ill. They are hostile then at the fact I am finding a measure of happiness. They lay on the guilt trip and I feel it. It is as though I am not allowed to have healthier moments and ups in my life.

Who are these people? Well they are not direct family members. They at least seem supportive and understanding. But the list includes some otherwise close friends that I have had the detach myself from and acquaintanceships. I shouldn't care what these people think or say, should I? But appearances matter to me. I feel guilty and the need to justify myself constantly.

Some really great stuff was said above that rang a chord with me. I rather like the statement that we ought to take ourselves seriously. I will endeavour to try this. Thank you.