I went through a period for about three weeks where I cut daily, then I managed to only cut about three times a week for about four weeks, then I got down to once a week for about three weeks, then I did not cut at all for two weeks. Now the cycle has started over again. During the times when I decreased the cutting, I was self-harming by taking too many pills, interfering with wound healing, and restricting food. So I guess I have been constantly self-harming in different ways.

I feel very guilty and ashamed about it, but I also feel a sense of power and accomplishment. Screwed up...