I woke up last night and didn't get back to sleep. I watched a lot of videos of people being interviewed where those two young accused murderers in northern Manitoba set their stolen car on fire and disappeared into the wilderness... They are thought to have murdered 3 people so far in remote parts of northern Canada.

Now of course everyone up there is pretty nervous about their safety and there is a huge manhunt going on in northern Manitoba, where their car was ditched. This story got a hold of me and has just been rattling around in my mind, along with interviews of the fathers of these two young men.

One father said his son, still a teen, was the product of an acrimonious divorce when he was 5 and was never nurtured, never learned to ride a bike or drive a car, and that he would go out in a hail of bullets with law enforcement because he was in pain. The father of the other teen said he never showed signs of violence and cared for the feelings of others. The two fathers are a study in contrast but the outcome looks to be the same.

I wonder if they will ever be found alive or dead. It's a harsh, swampy landscape full of sand flies right now and it's cold at night. The two had apparently been practising survival skills for the past couple of years but people who live up there say it is easy to get lost and just give up and die in the wilderness there.

These men are younger than my son, who also still doesn't have a valid Canadian drivers license. But he does have a job he likes, his own apartment, his friends, a girl friend and interests.

For some reason this story has really buried its way into my subconscious. After I could not fall back asleep I took 1.25 mg olanzapine around 4 am but didn't go to sleep. It's a little extra insurance I won't start having psychotic symptoms. My sleep has been really erratic. Sometimes almost 9 hours and quite a few times only around 6. Tonight it was only 5 hours. I had a coffee but will try to nap later.