Hi tecomsin,
I am so sorry for what you have been going through.
Is it possible to redirect your attention to some interest you enjoy?
Maybe a dumb question.
I am in a similar place with others here. I don't watch the news much. I know much of it makes me ill. I try to hit the highlights and leave the rest. I do not listen more than once to the same story, etc.
I hope you can get some relief ASAP.
Please let us know how you are doing?