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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote
Uggh!!! 
One of those days. about 10 days ago, my pdoc thought I was hypo. I think maybe she was right. I was fine though. I feel horrible now. She had increased both my Seroquel and my Lamictal. I have been feeling worse almost every day. I decreased the meds last night. I need my head to clear up! 
I hope this decrease will help. I see her tomorrow, after her 2 week vacation. She is going to tell me I should have called her. I don't want to bother her on her vacation. I can play doctor for a few days and will only do minimal damage. 
Actually, I would not have done the increase quite like that. I would have increased only the Lamictal if anything.
H called to see if I had paid the mortgage. We made it through the conversation in a very civil manner. I had to bite my tongue... very often. He continues to lie to me.. Blatant lies. I do not understand the purpose? The many cats are already out of the many bags! Why lie now?
I guess I will never truly understand where he is coming from. I have tried and tried. I need to accept the fact that I do not have to understand him. Life goes on. I "think" we are going to submit ourselves unto mediation. At least, that is what I am told. I just never know for sure, which is a huge PIA.
It is a nice evening here tonight. Cool and a light breeze! I will love sleeping without any AC tonight! 
I hope everyone is as well as can be!
Much Love ~  |
I think it is very wise of you to consider acceptance of not understanding him. You are who you are and you live true to yourself. He does not and it is a huge difference. He will continue to lie and at this point it would be hard to discern the truth even when he doesn't lie.
I recently spent a lot of energy trying to understand the motivation of some people who were very different from me. It was a pointless adventure and only brought me heartache. I should have simply invested the time into being the best version of myself I could be. Invest in you. It is the best bet you'll ever make. Stay strong WC. I think so many of us are inspired by your strength.