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Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs
I have found myself very triggered by news stories recently. I am trying to find a way to keep myself informed without spiraling into a dark place. I think reading from a reputable source a summary of events as opposed to watching news of anything too interactive like that would be better for my mental health. The manhunt you referred to showed up on my screen of the machine I was using at the gym and I had to look away so I wouldn't get into a mental spiral. Can you distract yourself or try to engage in something that makes you happy usually? Or maybe call a friend or family member? I am sorry you are feeling this way.
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Hi yellow_fleurs, I know what you mean about spiraling to a dark place. I get most of my information from reading but yesterday morning I was watching clip after clip of people involves somehow in the case being interviewed including the parent of one of the accused murderers.
I was drawn into contemplating what if my son had become like one of these young men. He often said I neglected him and never 'mothered' him growing up. Of course it is far fetched but that is the rabbit hole of guilt I went into yesterday.
I am really quite limited in who I can reach out to. I need to start again to be more active and get out. I was really set back by getting the flu after my sister did her thing to my son and me, that I wrote about before.
Christina is right, I have been through a lot. My mental state was just really poor yesterday and is better today.
I am glad you were able to look away.
Take care,
tecomsin