I wish I did, Pygmalion I know how you feel. I feel like that has more to do with our mental states. Are you depressed right now? Are you taking any Meds? Perhaps one of those things may be the cause. Just some thoughts. I don't have a lot of advice as I'm struggling with the same thing Hopefully someone will read this thread and help you out! Feel free to PM me anytime if you need a friend to talk to. I can relate to your feelings. I hope that helps a little even if it doesn't eliminate the boredom! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you and to ALL the people you Love and who TRULY Love you and Accept for who you TRULY are! PLEASE KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING!