I'm sorry you are stuck on the couch, and I'm sorry you can't get in to see your T. I don't really have anyone to talk to about cutting and stuff either, except here on PC and with my therapist. My therapist is pretty good but I don't see her all that frequently. She has jobs at two centers and so there's not a lot of availability. There are some appointments really late at night like 9:30 PM but I get up at 4:30 AM usually...so I'm in bed by then. So I have to wait until she has a 5 o'clock or a 6:30 or something reasonable. I'm sorry your boyfriend doesn't understand. The one person that should be able to really hear you. I don't have a boyfriend, and I haven't had one in a while. My last boyfriend didn't understand about cutting either. He dumped me when he found out about it. That sucked.