I just want to go to bed. I'm tired. I want to sleep through this but all that happens is my anxiety spikes when I lay down unless I'm already passing out. Then I wake up to large amounts of anxiety and it just builds. My H wants me on anti-anxiety meds. I'm suppose to be working on advocating for myself I'm questioning whether to call or not. I'm not suicidal so I feel it can wait but I tend to get talked to for waiting to long. I should have asked about IOP when I saw the therapist. I'm trying to hang on until the first to see if I'm switching clinics or not I'm not switching pdocs because I like mine and less is more with her. I'm in the "it's not that bad" phase.