you've had lots of good advice especially from Rose 76. This woman just used you for the money. Look at all the time you are wasting between a coffee in January and another in May. Let her have the money and break off all contact. Tell her give it to someone who needs it as you did. Then when that person builds themselves up they can give it to someone else.

Stop wasting your life with her. have you any idea how many women are in the world. Billions. Just think of how many are in one big city like New York alone. Just really think about it. You think if all the women in new york were in a huge space together and you walked through them you would not find one, just one, who liked you?

I understand you are depressed. Me too. But when someone tries to use me they get told. People will use you if you let them. The world will be with you as you are with the world. If you let people use you they will be queuing up