I had a bad night. Thanks for your kind words. I don't know when things will calm down for me. My sister that won't talk about my childhood is my biggest support. But she's also very in denial about a lot things that happened long ago. I guess I will just go off what I remember. Which is after my dad died my mom tried to take to her life like 4 times. I was a very scared child untIL I was in the about the 5th grade. Idk, I wis I had my sisters support through this.