Thank you for responding. I am so stressed about our meeting. I realize I am not her parent, I gave up that right. My prayer is that she doesn't hate me. I had always wanted a daughter, and when I was blessed to have one I gave her to another couple. When she first contacted me, she did for medical reasons, and I ended up being crushed. I am just so afraid. I am 54, and you would think I would have a backbone by now, but I don't, and no one that knows me understands. I don't know if I can handle rejection from her again. Can I friend you? I would be grateful for your input on this specially since you are on the other side from me. Also I have CPTSD. I have had a very hard life. If you don't want to be one of my friends, that is ok, I would understand.