Hello
I'm not sure if I should be posting here as I'm new so please move if need be.
I don't know what I'm after to be honest. Validation? Advice? I honestly don't know.

I am a single mum to 2 kids, boy who just turned 16 and girl just turned 11. Their dad lives interstate and has only seen them during holidays.

Until last Christmas, I lived in another state to where I am now. I wasn't coping mentally, was on 200mg antidepressants, and it only made me feel numb to all of my issues.

The kids and I came interstate to visit my best friend for Christmas and NY, and while here my bf was very concerned about my mental health and suggested (a forceful suggestion) I stay and heal. In my desperation to become better, I agreed. Very drastic decision but I did what I thought at the time was right for my mental health.

Daughter took it well, son did not and after many nights talking about it he said he wanted to return to his high school, stay with family. I let him go because i knew he wouldn't be happy here plus he goes to a very good high school. So, he left and living apart from him has bee very hard.

Fast forward to now, Im off the meds completely - I'm not going to pretend things are rosy, they're not, it's a work in progress, have had counselling, etc - but I am so grateful for the opportunity to get better. I am working and have a nice place for me and my daughter. But after all is said and done, I feel incomplete and am struggling to turn this place into a home. I miss my son, I miss my friends where I lived and I miss the place I called home for 7 years. Also, my daughter misses her brother very much.

I am seriously considering moving back - better planned this time - but I'm worried that I'm making this decision based on an unhealthy attachment to my son (I don't know if that's it, I have no way to tell) or if it really is what I'm thinking - I want my family back together again; me, my son and my daughter.

When I mentioned this to my son the other night he was so happy, I haven't heard the happiness in his voice since last year.

I've mentioned this to a couple of people who brought up the unhealthy attachment issue and it really stuck in my head.

Any thoughts? Thank you for reading all of it!