Thanks for the support. It really helps.

So, yes and no about feeling better. Everything in my life is chaos and disaster right now. Major health issues and we're getting evicted because the landlord wants to renovate and almost triple the rent. We have a place to go so it's kind of ok.

But the silver lining is that I'm finally going through my old clothes and getting rid of everything that isn't in line with my identity. I'm keeping one skirt that I actually like and can be fairly androgynous in. I've actually been experimenting with unconventional, androgynous looks so what I described in my original post will not happen again.