Yeah, an if you read this forum, you can see you are not the only client who cancels appointments.

In my first few years of therapy, i always wanted to also, mostly because i felt so ashamed of something that had happened in the previous session, or something i thought of after.

Shaming had been my parents primary mode of discipline. I just wanted to curl up in a ball all the time. From there i went to the opposite extreme of having no shame at all, and then stayed in THAT mode most of my adult life.

Now as a senior citizen, i have new things to shame me, like peeing my pants AND farting when i sneeze. Thanks, i dont need friends IRL, i'm fine with online only!