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Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs
Depression really can be quite painful I have found, and sometimes it feels like grief to me, too. Although I guess sometimes when I grieve something it feels like depression, too. I also found I generally felt depressed after having a mixed episode on Lexapro, if that's what it really was. Like my brain and body kind of felt like it had the flu and I was just a little off kilter for a while even though I wasn't in a mixed episode any longer. I however am not dealing with the PTSD you experience so I am sure that affects you in many ways I cannot understand. 
I am sorry you are feeling this way. I hope you can spend some time with people soon and not be alone too much. Is the meditation retreat still a plan for the future? If so, how are you feeling about that? |
Thanks. I think my depression is a response to the bad PTSD and mixed episode I was in. My brain chemistry is hopefully settling down. My poor brain had a rough ride.
This afternoon I’m going over my partners for the night, then parents for a night. My partner has been busy so it will be great seeing him. My parents are wonderful but trigger my PTSD so that will be harder. I don’t want to cut ties with them. They are my major support and take responsibility for their failures in the past. I am hoping once my PTSD shuts down I will feel fine around them again..
Sorry I’m not responding to others posts. I’m just too overwhelmed most of the time and my concentration is bad.
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