I recently read a question in the game section of these forums asked by a member to the next one to answer "what's your best day you have ever had?". I tried to think to answer the question, but I couldn't. I didn't remember one single day I feel it is best day I have ever had in my life!! My life of ~40 years has nothing to be remembered. I have no good memory to cherish. None. I even didn't attend my graduations, all three of them. This has been my life: meaningless. Now, because of my experience I don't plan to have children who are the source of joy for many normal human beings. So, probably I will spend my life just like this. Alone and lonely, with no good memory to remember, and die and be forgotten with no trace of ever been lived one day.