I can relate, @Nxious! It is hard when it seems like nothing good has happened in our Lives. But we have to keep fighting and hope for a better future. Please do NOT give up! Life isn't over yet and there's still time for you to tunr things over and live an happy and peaceful Life. I'm not sure what you're doing right now to help yourself, if you're seeing a therapist and whatnot, but whathever you do I wish you Peace and Love for you and all the people you care about! Please keep fighting and NEVER give up hope! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, Nxious, and to ALL the people you Love and who TRULY Love you and Accept you for WHO YOU TRULY ARE! PLEASE KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING ALL ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME for Advice and Support! I'm sure plenty of others will help you out as well! Please NEVER give up hope AND PLEASE KEEP FIGHTING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN! Things can still get better! THAT'S A PROMISE!