Hi, it's been a while since I was last here. I'm probably just going to ramble on but I feel lost and confused. I will try to keep it brief....

So I'm writing this whilst sitting at cliff tops (I am safe just now as there are tourists here). Somehow without being fully conscious of it, I think I've ended up here as my head really wants me to hurt myself today and it's like I compromised as I didn't want to take another overdose. So my head is going a million miles an hour, so I take a breath and phone the receptionist at the mental health hospital as my psychiatrist has left and noone has replaced her so apart from psychology I have nothing. I was basically told that when I called. I explained that I was at the cliffs and didn't know what was going to happen as if I leave here there's a good chance I'll feel like I have to take an overdose. The receptionist just told me to see my psychologist at the next appointment and that was it.