I'm so sorry that the mental health system where you are is failing... I wish they would do better and help you. Can you be safe?

I know the feeling of not wanting to take the meds. I'm having trouble with taking my meds right now too. I have to have help taking them at the moment. I can't make myself take them on my own... But it's best to continue taking them in the long run.

I really hope that you are able to keep yourself safe. I'm here if you want to continue to talk. I have PHP in a little bit so I may not be readily available but I get a break about every hour. I'll check Tapatalk every break...