Welcome, angel. I strongly advise taking the time to go through a bit of the forum, maybe the last month or so. It's extremely helpful to recognize that you are by no means alone, even if the distances that separate us are great. It's not "wrong" to cut, it's simply something that you do, like anything else. There's no judgements here. I would ask that the next time you feel like it, why not give us a nice long post on how you are first and see if that doesn't help in some way. Or try the chat. It's worth a shot, right?

Again, welcome, and *hug*. Hope to hear from you soon.