Hi Christina,

Yes I've had a rough time. It started off with a lot of negative feelings around my best friend at the time. She ghosted me the week I was waiting to find out the results of my cancer scan, not knowing when that would be since they weren't ready when I had my oncology appointment. I started to think then she didn't have much empathy for me.

Then I became overly focussed on her disability claim and started wondering if she were cheating. I wrote a lot about before...

Then she dumped me while we were on an outing to go be with her other friend and I haven't spoken to her since.

Then I find out my dad is dying of pancreatic cancer so I tried to reach out to him after many years of no contact. He died unexpectedly quickly so he didn't suffer.

Somewhere in there I had pulled hip muscle and was in quite a lot of pain taking pain killers and robaxacet every day for several weeks.

After my sister pulled her triangulation stunt using my son, I abruptly came down with the flu and it has been a long recovery. I am still coughing and quite tired.

My self care has slipped. I am only showering 2 times a week now and hardly see anyone. I need to go grocery shopping today so will get out the door I hope today.

I am sorry I have not been able to help others on here.

The manhunt still preoccupies me but I am taking olanzapine again at night so have been getting a good nights sleep. I was amazed how much one night of only 5 hours threw me for a loop. I was non-functional that day.

I miss having a friend to text every day and go out with regularly. My new friend is more busy and we don't get together as often. She also has diabetes so doesn't want to eat out that much.